Prayer times: How you do feel when you have not prayed for days?

How you do feel when you have not prayed for days?

I feel like I’m failing – like I’m disappointing God, myself, and everything I’ve committed to spiritually. It feels like I’m neglecting the most important relationship in my life, and yet I still let it happen.

There’s this weight of guilt that builds up, whispering, You should know better. And I do. But knowing doesn’t always translate to action. I feel like I’m fainting spiritually, losing my grip on the strength that prayer offers. It’s as though I’m asking God to help me, but I’m too weary or distracted to show up and receive the help I’ve prayed for.

For me, prayer is often a midnight commitment. I tell myself, Tonight will be different. I’ll stay awake, and I’ll talk to God. But exhaustion wins most nights. The day’s demands drain me, leaving little energy to show up for what should matter most.

Tonight, though, I’m determined to stay awake. I need this time—not just to ask for strength, but to reconnect with God, to feel the peace that only prayer can provide. Writing these thoughts down helps ease some of the heaviness. It’s a reminder that I’m not alone in this struggle, that others likely feel this same cycle of guilt and longing when prayer feels distant.

If you’ve ever felt this way, know this: you’re not alone. We all have seasons of spiritual drought, but they don’t define us. Tonight, I’ll fight to show up. And if you’re reading this and feeling the same pull to reconnect, maybe tonight can be your night too.

Edit: I did wake up and prayed 30mins.

One thing I learned at this time is that I was postponing my prayers because the timing seemed much. So I decided to do 30minutes instead of doing 2 hours or not doing at all and it became easier to adopt (and sometimes 15minutes can run into 30minutes which can into 1hour).